What I don't understand

Okay so I've realised something.... there's a few things I don't understand

1. How you can claim to love someone and then say the meanest most hurtful things to them. (Kind of explained in my last post)

2. How some people can't see past what society tells us we should act like or look like. Recently I overheard a group of girls at my school call a girl fat. So I questioned them on it. " Why do you feel the need to use the word fat as a bad thing ? Just because she doesn't fit what society has told us is the right way to look why is that so bad ?" I asked and heard no reply. This has happened a couple of times for me the first being when a group of boys called on of my friends gay, the incident above being the second.  The thing about them is they can't take it back they can only dish it our.

3. How some people can moan so much and do so little about it. I know a girl who says she's fat and hates the way she looks but she does nothing about it which is infuriating to me.

Sorry for my little rant just had to get a couple of things off my chest.

One thing I want to get clear is im not going to sugarcoat anything. If I'm finding somethings tough then you better believe I'm going to write about it. It I'm upset about something then I'm going to write about it.

Remember your beautiful,

Beth x

This is the start

Hi my name is Bethany, Beth to my friends, and I have decided to create this blog in order to document my life and weight loss (hopefully).

I am 16 years old, but don't let that put you off reading I'm quite mature and I've been through a lot, and I live in Scotland.

I have to admit I've never really read anyone else's blog purely because I've not had the desire or time. So why then if I read no one else's would I make my own ?

Well that's simple I don't have anyone at this point in my life that I feel like I can talk to about certain things or the way I'm truly feeing. My family has been through a lot and sometimes I feel like it's necessary for me to smile and say everything's okay just for them so it's one less thing they have to deal with.

However that being said I'm sick of them commenting on my weight. I am 5'4 and I weigh 76kg. I hate the way I look and they don't help that. Aren't families supposed to be supportive and tell you your beautiful ? Mine don't.  Earlier I walked into the living room to show everyone a new top that I bought and was met with a barrage of comments telling me it was "too small" and "not a good look" for me and I don't think they understand how it makes me feel. Upset. Disgusting. Horrible.  I liked the top it was one of my favourite purchases over the last couple of months but after hearing their comments it made me feel so low and alone.

I hope that if anyone is in a similar situation then this blog might be a place for you to find comfort in knowing your not alone.

Remember your beautiful,

Beth x